Solitude & Sereni.tea

I am still feeling a bit rough. More than a bit rough. I move slow. I ignore household chores because I am sore. I cry at work because its tough, my brain can’t handle the stress and I pretty much feel the entire world is being mean to me because they can, and maybe a bit because I deserve it. I am spiralling. I recognize this. I also know that there a few things I can do to make myself feel better.

• have a hot shower
• talk to a friend
• eat vegetables
• take my vitamins
• go for a very slow and short walk
• get a bit of sun

I did all of the above today. Though a 90 year old woman passed me on the street, and that shamed me. I got out of the house, and so I managed to do a few good for me things. I don’t feel good yet though.

On the way home, I stopped off to get some oatmeal raisin cookies – because if nothing else works then cookies have to, right? I’ve been staring at that plate of cookies for an hour, but i keep thinking, “what if they don’t work either?”

Maybe I am asking too much from a cookie.

*no tea today, its still too hot.