Solitude & Sereni.tea

After 7 (cough cough) weeks of Covid/Pneumonia/and a lung condition too disgusting to mention, I am finally feeling 100% better. And I am happy to be returning to life once again. The past weeks have been really difficult for me, but now that I am feeling better, my instinct is to load up on activities, so I don’t feel like my life has been a complete waste of time. I know that this isn’t the right way to handle this, but my brain and my fingers are just itching to get to work.

However, my self care experiment has helped me create some new habits. The most import one is noticing when red flags pop up. And feeling like I need to catch up – raised a huge red flag. Going full steam ahead is going to put me right back into a state of convalescing. So I am doing a slow return to life. Letting go of some of the things that don’t serve me as well as I think they should, as well as adding in some activities that I have wanted to do for a long time.

Here is what I am going to do and not do.

• I am no longer going to do mindful eating. I will still try to eat healthy – but enough of this eating in silence. And when the need for grilled cheese sandwiches calls, I will listen and make one.
• I will no longer over-schedule my life, or beat myself up for skipping out on a self care activity. Sometimes saying no to your calendar is an act of self care in itself.
• I am saying no to a volunteer opportunity I secured a few weeks ago, that I was really looking forward to, but it means being around a lot of people a couple times a week, and I am just feeling a bit too skittish for that right now.
• I am saying still saying yes to outdoor exercise, maybe not 90 minutes everyday. But there will be lunchtime walks, and standing barefoot on the grass at my local park until the weather turns cold. And I will never say no to walks along the seawall. Those walks are one of my most favourite things about the city. My aim is to get out there 3 times a week.
• I am saying yes to my guitar. And to more teaching. I love teaching classical guitar and getting to know my students, as well as helping them become the person that they are meant to and want to be.
• I am saying yes to joining a book club. I have wanted to be a part of a book club for a really long time, but I could never find the right fit. There was an opening in my local library’s club – and I snuck in and secured the spot. Yes to more diversified reading!
• I am saying yes to devoting a few hours a week to a new creative project. The idea is brand new, and so Im not comfortable revealing what this is going to be just yet. But its going be brilliant.
• I am saying yes to more blogging – watch for more activity.
• And lastly I am saying yes to new opportunities. I would love to collaborate on a new project with someone – I dont have any ideas, but I am open to whatever finds and needs me.

Anyway, I am feeling really grateful for the last two months, and how much rest I had received. It’s given me a reset, and a new focus on creativity and self love, and self care. Today is a new season and I am ready to GOOOOOOOO!

*Todays tea – Sherlock Holmes English Breakfast Tea from Noveltea