Solitude & Sereni.tea

Last night, I had the opportunity to support a very good friend (via livestream, because I live far away), as she shined in the lead role as Madame Flora aka Baba, in the Saskatoon Symphony Orchestra’s production of The Medium by Gina Carlo Menotti.

I think that most people feel good when we support our friends. Especially when we know the kind of work that goes into whatever it is that they are doing. We want to see the people that we care about succeed. Last night was different though. I have known Anastasia for almost 30 years. I watched and listened to her on stage before, I have performed with her. We were baby musicians together, and it’s just incredible to see your friend succeed in what she loves doing more than anything else. But most of all it’s inspiring.

I came away from that performance, not only beaming for her. But really missing the artistic life. I have a teaching practice of amazing young classical guitar students/storytellers. We have a lot of fun. And I wouldn’t give it up for the world.But it’s not the same as being a part of something like an ensemble. It’s hard for me to put this into words, but I feel like I lack creation, and community. I feel like there is no purpose in my own musical or artistic development right now – and I am craving it. I want to belong to something bigger than myself. I don’t need to be on the stage. But I want to be part of something inspiring. And I dont find anything as inspiring as art (it doesnt matter the medium).

I need to make some changes in my life. A day job to support my side hustle of teaching is not enough. Nor is it enough to call my passion a side hustle. Change in this area needs to be made. And so I am taking steps to do that. I dont know what this phase is going to look like. Nor do I know when this change will reach fruition. I just know that it has already started. And that I have a small but very mighty performance from the cast and crew of The Medium along with members of the Saskatoon Symphony Orchestra.

Its been a long time since I have felt so inspired.

Bravo to you all. And Thank you.